Hallo Leute!

It's been a long while since I posted something *hides*
But now I'm gonna tell you about some days ^^

Tuesday June 28
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Tuesday was graduation day and Twilight night ^^
I graduated! For the second time and last time. I'm done with school!
My grades weren't extremely good, but the most important thing is that I past!
My best grade was German ( how would that come? xD) 72%
And I also got my business management diploma, wasn't sure if I'd get that cause I sucked at it and I hated it xD
So now school is over forever and I'm gonna miss my friends very much! Since I will be seeing them a lot less! :(

After graduation me and my best friend hurried to go to the cinema cause it was Twilight night! Which meant all 3 films in a row! Twilight, New Moon and Eclipse.
We did miss the first part of Twilight but yeah it wasn't like I had never seen it XD
At 0.01 the premiere of Eclipse started!
It was so good! I liked it more than the book, cause I found it a bit boring. I laughed many times and I've been sitting on the edge of my seat from excitement!
I hope to see it again another time soon.

Thursday July 1
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Thursday was the day when the sales started so my bff and I went shopping in Antwerp.
It sucked so bad!! It was very hot and a lot of people so no fun to shop at all. All I bought was a starbucks milkshake, a pair of pants, a t-shirt and a few dvd's.
Crappy day!

Friday July 2
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ROCK WERCHTER!!
That day was so much fun!!! I went there with my good friend Sophie <3
It was extremely hot that day like 50°C. But we filled lots of water bottles to cool us off. The headliners of the day to me were: 30 Seconds To Mars, Paramore, Rise Against. Jared Leto is fucking hot in real life! *_*
After seeing them live I'm even more in love with them! We also saw Green Day but only for a few minutes cause we had to leave to catch our last train home.
It was definitely a day to never forget <3

Sunday July 18
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I went to the beach with my friends Wouter and Sophie! <3
I had missed them so much!
I picked up Sophie at 14u30 and then we went to the train station together to go get Wouter and then we went to the beach till 9pm after that we got something to eat. Afterwards we took a walk in the park before we had to go back to the station so Wouter could take his train home :(
We had an amazing good time just talking, laying on Wouter :p
I miss them already :( <3

This is love

It's been a while since I posted something. My life is just not so interesting I guess xD
So I'll tell you something 'old', but it something that comes to my mind now and then.

So about 2.5 years ago I fell deeply in love with a guy from my class. He was, still is actually, the perfect guy for me, he has everything I ever wanted in a guy. We got along very well, and still do. And he gave me the feeling he loved me too. I never told him that I loved him, but he knew, guess I was very obvious. And he had told me he didn't love me the way I loved him, I was sad for that, but as long as he was still my friends I could live with it.
Until he got a girlfriend, I was so jealous of the girl. I eventually got over it, even though it took me a while and I was able to be happy for him being happy. Now my feelings for him aren't that strong anymore, I've learned to control them, but I guess I know that my feelings for him will never go away completely cause I have loved him too much for that too happen.
He will always be my Prince Charming and have that very special place in my heart. He was the first guy I ever fell so much in love with. Sometimes I wonder how my life would be like now, if he had loved me back, but it'something I'll never know. I hope that one day, I'll meet a guy I'll be even more in love with than I was with him, cause that might be the day that I'll be able to stop my feelings for him completely.
But until that day, I'll just have to keep hoping and praying

TOKIO HOTEL LIVE!!

The concert was amazing! More than perfect.
I left from school at 3pm and took the train to the concert at 3.15pm.
We (me and my best friend) arrived there around 5pm.
Then we had to wait about 1.5 hours before we could enter the venue.
While we were waiting, we started talking to a fan there, Lisa, and then we stayed with her and her stepmom the entire night.
finally inside it was still 1.5 before the concert started. We took sitting places and had an amazing view!! We could see everything perfectly :D
First there was a DJ, and everyone was singing and dancing. And then at 8.30pm, we saw TOM's LEFT EGG!! That thing is huge! o.o

thet started with 'Noise'. All the songs were so amazing live, I like them even better live, than the album versions!. Because the guitar play comes out so much better live! Especially in 'Human connect to human' during the "Hit me" part! The guitars are awesome there! *_*

And Bill's voice is fucking flawless! I never expected hime to be able to hit the high notes in 'Love & death' but he fucking did and he did it perfectly!

I freaked out when I saw Tom at the piano, that was so gorgeous! *_* <33
The motorbike during 'Dogs unleashed' was AWESOME!! Bill looked so good on that! *_*

The only thing I liked less was 'Humanoid' acoustic, that song is to hard to be played acoustic.

Then the last song was 'Dark side of the sun'. I was like:"NO!" I didn't want it to end already!
But they came back and played 'Zoom into me' and 'Monsoon'. After 'Monsoon' they all said goodbye and Gustav was so cute, trying to make everyone be quiet XD
He didn't succeed the first time, but he tried again and the crowd was pretty much quiet XD

After that they came back one more time to play 'Forever now' and then they all went in Tom's left egg and the concert was over. :(

I love Bill's outfits! First I had my doubt about them, but when I saw them live, I loved them! they fitted the 'Welcome to humanoid city tour' theme perfectly!
And they stage looked awesome too!

The guys (except Gustav XD) were constantly changing places on stage, which is awesome, that way everyone was able to see them!

The concert was in 1 word: P.E.R.F.E.C.T
Best concert of them I've been to so far! =D

Last week I visited Canni
We had lots of fun :D
We started of good, with getting drunk XD !



I also met her family they're really sweet!
And the first time I met het her brother-in-law I was completly drunk, so that was kinda funny XD

We also went to see 'Percy Jackson and the lightning thief
And this is my fav scene *giggle* starting from 1:40 that car they're driving is my fav car all time! *_*



Next I'll be back with a review from the Tokio Hotel concert!!
I'm going to see them tomorrow in Brussels and I'm so so excited!!

See you all <3

Denmark :D

Sunday I finally booked my flight to Denmark :D *dances*
I'm going to visit Canni there :D
I'm so excited to see her again <3
I'm staying there from 13.02 till 19.02 (my b-day- btw xD)
We'll be having so much fun , I'm sure of that. How could we not, we're both amazing persons and they always have fun *laughs*

I'm so excited!! February is going to be the best month :D
seeing Canni for a whole week, seeing TH in concert, my B-day, awesome :DD

So this was my little update

Bye <3

Love Story: The Dream Guy

Roxanne is a very normal British woman, with her long curly dark brown hair and green/grey eyes, she looks like an average woman. Maybe that’s the reason her previous boyfriend cheated on her with, her ‘so called’ best friend, the gorgeous Samantha. With her long blond hair, blue eyes, big boobs and tiny waist, she is a treath to every girl. Even though Roxanne never thought she would that to her, they were best friends.

One and half year ago Roxanne finished work early and decided to surprise Benjamin, her ex-boyfriend. She opened the door quietly and looked for him. When she couldn’t find him immediately she to the bedroom and saw them together. She slammed the door shut. Benjamin ran after her and grabbed her arm. “It’s not what you think.” He said. “Then tell me what it is.” She yelled at him. He didn’t answer. “That’s what I thought.” And she walked out the door. The door opened again. “You can have this back.” She ripped the necklace, he bought her last Valentine, from her neck, threw it on the floor and rushed out of the door.

Now 1.5 years later she’s still single and still working at her lame ass job, booking agency. She wonders if she’ll be able to ever find a boyfriend. There aren’t any potential lover coming at work. Either they have a girlfriend or they’re way too old. And since she’s not really an out-going person, she won’t meet any men other than the ones at work either.
After a long day at work, she took a shower and put on her pyjamas. She turned on the tv looking for something to watch. Then she saw that the ‘The Notebook’ was on and decided to watch that. Before she realized she had fallen asleep.

Roxanne was walking in a grass field, that’s filled with flowers. It’s a beautiful warm and sunny day, she feels amazing. Then she notices a guy standing a few feet away from her. As she walks towards him, she feels someone holding her arm. She looks next to her and sees her dad. “Dad?” She asks confused. “You look beautiful, sweetheart.” He replies with a big smile. As they continue walking to the guy, she see that there are more people there, it’s her family and some other people she doesn’t recognizes. They’re all looking at her with big smiles and amazed faces. She’s coming closer to the guy, she sees he’s wearing a black tuxedo and a white shirt. He looks stunning. Dark hair, perfectly styled, amazing blue eyes and he has the biggest and most beautiful smile. That’s when she realizes he’s standing in front of a altar, as she looks down to look at herself, she realizes she’s wearing a wedding dress. She getting married, no wonder everyone is so happy. As she has realized that, she can’t help but being incredibly happy too. Now she’s standing next to the beautiful guy and the priest starts saying things that he and she both repeat. “I do.” She says. “I do.” He says. “you may now kiss the bride.” The priest says. She closes her eyes as both he and she get closer to each other.

“Fuck.” Roxanne says as she turns off her alarm. “Stupid alarm, always going off at the worst moments.” Roxanne gets out of bed and gets herself ready to go to work. At work she can only think about her dream, trying to think what his name was. As she’s daydreaming about her dream guy, the guy sitting in front of her suddenly takes her out of her daydreaming. Even though it looks like she was still dreaming, he looked exactly like the guy from her dreams, the same dark hair, blue eyes and the same stunning smile. “Are you okay?” He asks smiling. “Oh.. Euhm.. Yeah, I’m fine, sorry. How can I help you?” She quickly replies. “I’d like to book a flight.” “Sure, no problem, where to?” “Phuket, Thailand, with 2 adults.” “When are you planning to go?” “6 months from now, August 12 until August 20, and I don’t need a hotel, just the flight” “Okay, I’ll see what I can find. I found one leaving August 12 at 5.30 at Glasgow and arriving at Phuket August 13 at 0.30. Return from Phucket August 20 at 22.30 and arriving at Glasgow August 21 at 12.30. Is this one okay?” “It’s perfect, thank you.” And he smiles. “I’ll just need your ID, phone number and address now.” Roxanna says to him. He gives his ID and writes down his phone number and address.
Roxanna takes his ID and when she sees his name she gasps as she remembers that her dream guy’s name was Matthew. “You’re name’s Matthew?” She asks him. “Yes, but I prefer to be called Matt.” He answers still smiling. “I like Matthew though.” “Well you can call me Matthew then.” Roxanne blushes and continues booking his flight. She lets him fill out some forms. Matthew pays his flight and walks to the door as he turns around. “Could I have your number so I could call, if I have any questions?” “Sure, I’ll write it down for you.” Roxanne writes down her phone number and gives it to him. He thanks her and she stares as he walks out the door. Roxanna sighs as she sits down on her chair again. Now she finally meets her dream guy, and he has a girlfriend, live is so unfair.

A week has passed since she saw Matthew, she hasn’t even heard of him, she had hoped that he might have some questions and that he would call. It’s Saturday evening, Roxanne just made herself dinner and is watching TV. Suddenly her phone rings, she looks to see who is calling but it’s a private number. “Hello?” “Hi Roxanne, Matthew here, I was wondering if you were doing anything tonight?” “Oh.. Hi Matthew.. Euhm.. I’m free tonight.” Roxanne answers as she is trying to make a proper sentence. “Oh, perfect! Would you be able to meet up with me at the park across from the big building in about 30 minutes?” “Euhm… Yeah?” She has no idea what to say, she’s completely surprised. “Good, I’ll see you then.” Matthew hung up the phone. Roxanne was staring in front of her, not realizing what just happened. Then she got up and quickly got ready. She decided to wear a simple jeans and a pink top. She put on her long black coat on top of her pink top and went outside. When she arrived at the park she went to sit on the border of the fountain. When Matthew didn’t arrive after 15 minutes waiting, Roxanne got tired of waiting and got up to go back home. “You’re not leaving already, are you?” She recognized Matthews voice. “I thought you wouldn’t come anymore.” “Yeah, sorry about that, got lost in the trees.” He laughed. “So why did you want to meet me here?” Roxanna asked. “I have something to tell you, you probably think I have a girlfriend, but I don’t. Actually you caught my attention a few months ago and I’ve kinda been following you then. Last week I finally had the courage to go into the booking agency…” “But if you don’t have a girlfriend who are you taking with you to Phuket then?” Roxanne cut him off. “Well, I would ask you if you want to go with me.” He asked looking the other way. “Wauw, I don’t know what to say…” “Yes, would be a good answer.” He said as he smiled at Roxanne. “But I don’t even know you.” “We still have 6 month to get to know each other.” He laughed. “We better get starting then.” Roxanne giggled.

Roxanne and Matthew walked through the park and talked about everything: ex-lovers, hobby’s, favorite films, music,… They had an amazing time together, Roxanne really liked him, maybe even loved him. How could she not, after all he was the man of her dreams. They were standing in front of Roxanne’s apartment. “This is my place.” Roxanna said. “Well goodnight then, I suppose.” Matthew said as he moved closer to Roxanne, then their lips met each other and continued in a passionate kiss. Roxanna shyly looked down as she wished Matthew a good night and went inside. Roxanne immediately went to bed and slept as a rose. She had never felt this good, she was in love. The next months were amazing, Roxanne and Matthew spent every day together. They had dinner’s, concerts, walks in the parks and many more amazing things.

August 11, the day Roxanne realized she was going to Thailand with Matthew tomorrow. She called Matthew from work letting him now, but he hasn’t forgotten that. He already prepared everything while she was at work. All she had to do now is relax when she came home.
They left to the airport at 2 am. They slept during the entire flight and were happy when they finally arrived in Phucket. They took the taxi to a gorgeous villa. “Oh my god, this is beautiful!” Roxanne said stunned. “Thank you, it’s used to be my grandfather’s villa, my dad got it after he died, and he let me use it.” Matthew showed Roxanne around in the villa, and they went to bed, since it was past midnight by now.

The week in Thailand went by unbelievable be fast, they had an amazing time. But unfortunately they had to go back home. In plane neither of them were able to sleep, they were both talking about all the things they did in Phuket. They were laughing when they were talking about the blunders they made, until they heard the captains voice: “Please put on your seatbelts will be going to some turbulence.” The turbulence took long and didn’t seem to stop. When Matthew looked out of the window he saw, they were in a huge storm cloud. The plane started shaking more and more, people started panicking around them when the oxygen masks came down. Roxanne was one of them. Matthew tried to calm her down and put her oxygen mask over mouth and put on his own. Matthew looked out of the window again and saw the motor catching fire, now he started panicking too. The plane started losing height and then the voice of the captain said they everyone needed to prepare for a emergency landing in the ocean. But before they were able to land, one of the wings broke and the plane started spinning and going down at an enormous speed. Matthew took Roxanne’s hand. “I love you, sweetheart.” Matthew said, tears welling up in his eyes. “I love you too, baby.” Roxanne cried and kissed Matthew long and intense, like it was there last kiss.

Then the plane crashed in the water. People were screaming everywhere, trying to find their family. “Matthew, Matthew!” Roxanne screamed, but she didn’t get any reply. Roxanne looked through the plane scrap pieces, trying to find Matthew. After 20 minutes searching she found him. “Matthew… Baby, wake up! Please! Matthew…” Roxanne started crying, Matthew didn’t reply and she didn’t feel any pulse. Matthew was died. When she realized it, she screamed and cried and couldn’t stop! Even when the rescue people came, nothing could stop her from crying. Now 3 weeks after the plane crash, she still cried every day. The pain she felt now he’s gone is unbearable. No matter how much she tries to try to continue with her life it’s not helping, because every single thing she does reminds her of Matthew. After another 3 months, the missing of Matthew was still as painful as in the beginning. Matthew was the man of her dreams, the One, the one person she wanted to spent the rest of her life with. She just can’t handle the pain anymore, so for her there was only one way to take the pain away and be with Matthew again, forever this time. Roxanne took the sleeping pills from the medicine locker and put all the pills in her mouth and swallowed them. She fell asleep to never wake up again. The only thing she left was a goodbye letter.

For me there was no other way, then this. I just couldn’t take the pain of missing him anymore. Matthew was the perfect man for me and without him in my life, my life just doesn’t has meaning anymore. Our love isn’t doesn’t just last ‘until death tares us apart’. It goes way further than that. In this way I’ll be able to be with him again and be with him forever. It wasn’t just missing that made living impossible for me, but also guilt. I was the one that let him switch places with me, because I didn’t want to sit next to the window. If I just would’ve taken place next to the window, he’d still be alive now. I know you’ll be able to go on with your lives, you have to, it’s my last wish I want from you. You can cry over me for a while but after that all I want is for you to have fun again. I’m sorry for doing this to you, but the pain was impossible to live with. I know I’ll be a lot more happy and have peace, because I’ll be able to be with Matthew again.
Love Roxanne

While I was out

I got a huge surprise when I got home from Stuttgart! Ö
My parents completely re-did my room.
I knew they'd be working in my room, but I didn't expect this!
I love so much what they've done to my room <33

Some pictures of my new room!






I was so surprised to see it!!
They did all the things I want to have in my room! Ö
I love my parent so much, they're just amazing! <33